AH! It’s JULY!!! O_O

Anyway, it’s not that big of a surprise, but damn, I didn’t do anything here for about a month besides that poem I just submitted. But limited internet = no interest in internet. That’s how it is. I’ve been doing some school projects, so I can post things. Oh my goodness. But I apologize for not posting anything for my own interests.. Right now, I’m in a tight spot. About to move again. You get tired, but I can either a) complain and mope about it or b) just deal with it as it goes since it’s all ready happening. I go with “b.”

So I found out that Art Center doesn’t do online learning. I needed that so bad, and I understand it’s crucial to be in school for long periods of time but 5 days a week is a little much for me. Well… it’s the really the gas bill that bothers me. Fountain Valley to Pasadena is around 1 and half hours. That’s terrible when you’re not living in L.A. — it would have been an easier commute but no… I’ll be going to Elk Grove.. or someone near San Jose or Sacramento where my parents will find comfort in a Vietnamese community. I understand and I will not complain. Life’s tough when your dad is unemployed, your mom is working 60 hours and paying for a big old house they’re not even finished paying for. I’ll miss my friends for sure, I find value in them like I have never before, indeed they are valuable to me and dear in my heart. Some would be surprised though… if they heard me. But people are just valuable in general — there are mean people, yes — but still valuable. If I could explain it, I would, but it’s hard to.

And Tannie is a chameleon, she can shapeshift into any environment.

I’ve been taking color and design and creative writing. Some stuffs:

I’m quite tired from swimming earlier today. At another time, I’ll explain what I learned while at Art Center and why I still like AAU

And then some…

I never thought I’d say this, but I’m getting tired of reading all these ebooks I’ve downloaded. I think I overloaded the past week, so it’s lost interest, which means I should try out The Count of Monte Cristo, and the rest of my new books.

I am me and You are You,

Let’s just be the person

whom we are meant to be.

Anywho. Yesterday, I’d gone to a group meeting at Dave’s and his son, Andrew, got the Super Smash Bros. Brawl… heheh… I actually didn’t play until after dinner at 9pm, but then it kind of snowballed after because I played till 10:30 with a brother, damn! It was fun and nostalgic, it made me miss playing games a lot. I’m still going to try out Okami later on during the summer or something, hoping like hell the price will go down even further. But someone was telling me if I invested time playing Starcraft, I might actually get some bucks. Who cares, was what I was thinking, because what a dreary way to spend the rest of your life playing a stupid game that isn’t even real. Life is real, and this X Y Z generation is forgetting that. I feel so sorry for us. I’ll never date a gamer, maybe a mild one, but yeah.. I just don’t see anything and I hate wimps. And clingy people. Yes…. those kinds of people… drag the essence out of you.

Right. So I’m going to be back in SoCal over the week, which I think is sucky! but I cannot complain. I kind of wonder why I’m so heartless to my family, I feel bad about being the black sheep sometimes, but I read about the numerology in my name makes me detached from family, something about not having that many 9’s I think… Though, God, I hope my children don’t treat me this way. So I’m trying, it’s just so hard.

Before I leave, I want to add some sketches I’ve done, they’re pretty recent since the last month, just been lazy to upload them, but hey, at least they are here…. I like to draw girls, btw. That’s why there is a lot of females…

I’m finding goatees very attractive.. haha .. yeah..

It’s still very sketchy, but I’m hoping to fix the hand and the left arm on her throat.. it’s just hard w/o reference.

I think I drew this when Heith Ledger died… It wasn’t a tribute, but I just wanted to try out a joker thing since he plays it in the upcoming Batman.

I did this way before I even learned about the bones and back muscles, so there’s going to be a lot of re-editting on this one, as well as the retarded arm… I blacked it with a sharpee… so it’s messy.

Yup.. that’s it.

Cheers.

Calming Day

“Relief”

Unsettling mind,

I cleanse with inner strength, courage,

and peace, be thankful.

I just had a pleasant talk with someone, and it took four days to spring up some courage for it. In the end, I have a greater understanding of these people whom I feel a separation from. I shouldn’t feel that way, if indeed they and I are the same. Which I do truly think, all people are the same mainly because we all walk the same path eventually, some slower than others. Today was suppose to be a spiritual day, and I guess it was. I’ve been neglecting to meditate daily, I guess school does this to you? Well, I’m going to try again, I do this a lot, on and off, but I believe in the essence of spirituality, so this is something I want to do for the rest of my life.

Anyway, I’ve been practicing with markers!

I couldn’t completely scan my entire name on the first one because my scanner can’t scan everything even though the scanner bed fit the height quite well. I actually did these pretty fast, and I like them a lot, because I’m getting the hang of using my warm grey markers. As one can see, the first image is of my first thumbnail in the last entry. I didn’t expect to do them today, but I just felt like it. The second picture was not suppose to be final, I was just playing around, that’s why there’s some unwanted lines in it still. It’s not official, but I still like it!

I don’t really have much to say today. Another poem for another time.