I contemplated on posting this or not or perhaps holding off on it for a bit. As you can see, I have no idea what sort of reaction I’ll get for posting. I wish I could grasp what I really wanted to achieve out of making this. Feelings that can’t be put into words, but I’ve never wanted people to think I’m lewd or weird in any way. I’m just human…. One of the most powerful things I realized when I painted this was that the kind of art I enjoy the most isn’t just pretty, I really am desperate for a voice. I want people to stop and think about it for a moment. Actually, I don’t want them to stop, I want people to say, “What the fuu–?” I think it’s harder being this sort of artist because it depends whether or not people will like what they see.
In other news, this is my 3rd art studio class, drawing for film. For some reason, I can never delete stuff from the “gallery” part of the picture uploading so I can’t customize what pictures go into the slideshow, but the slideshow thing looks pretty nifty! Btw, I decided to change my layout of the blog after a year. Change is good. 🙂 Anyway, I have this strange urge to please, so I have this desire to do well in this class; I’m always worried about fucking up. This weekend, I’m going to put in some serious effort. Like, totally serious. >:| I hope… Creature design takes me two days to do because I have to do a lot of research. And I need to do more sketching…
Then I have to talk to my roomies about finding a new person and renewing our lease. Ah, a lot on my mind. I’m going to stress out again, which will make me procrastinate. And the ants… don’t get me started again… *sigh*
I just realize I post more sketches than I do finished artwork.