Category Archives: Haiku

“My Bed”

my flannel covered

Jade bed is a slab of ice

Yang Guo is not me

If you know Jin Yong, you might understand… hahaha.. Yeah, it was a little random.

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I was going to post something earlier in the previous weeks, and then I was going to post another thing early in this week, but I put it off. So now… I suppose I was going to talk about Christmas and how it doesn’t mean as much to me anymore. And not all of my family members are celebrating on the same day. But that’s …okay-ish. I mean.. people have stuff to do. And I’m just too expectant. And this year is a little bit depressing. More like, down-right frustrating.

I got myself riled up to do a thirty day comic challenge, similar to nanowrimo, but I don’t have a real script… I was going to do a still life painting, but I’m just putting it off and the flowers are just dying… And I’ve got a sewing project to do. It feels like I can’t get anything right. I’m also thinking so much, I won’t be all the way home for my own bday. New years is my bday, so I suddenly feel disgusted. I feel like I’m just going to turn twenty and that’ll be it. That’s all. It’s so empty. Aging doesn’t really matter, since doesn’t really exist like we all think it does. It’s probably there so that humans can keep things organized, like keeping track of the sun. Do you think that trees know that they are so-and-so years old? All they are aware is that they have are there, and “there” has been a really long time.  I try to omit the word, “time” from my vocabulary, but its so glued in there, I can say it minimally or when I need to.

And yes, I’m fucking sad with my situation. I’m so not happy. I just wish there was more I could do about it. Not resenting my living situation. What exactly am I resenting anyway? What is it? I wonder what I am doing sometimes. Being dissatisfied and unhappy without reason or cause. I’ve completely forgotten about what I read in the power of now, and various meditation techniques. I’m about ready to give up and wish for world destruction.

I just realized I used the word, “situation.” There is a difference between a “life situation” and “life.” Life situations have problems and worries. Life doesn’t. I think I just answered myself a bit. Turning my life into a life situation.

Tomorrow, I should get ready to pack up and leave for Aspendell. I  hope  that I have a good time for once.

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Intro to Anatomy Week 4 Works

“Like Dust”

Like the dust on the

Ground and how the air takes me

Far and far away.

Just a note: I’m posting these pictures online knowing full well there might be people looking for images. I don’t mind that people take them because I take pictures from unknown sources a lot of the times. The difference is that I don’t make profit from them, so I hope that the people who come across this understand. These are free to take to examine or whatever else you might want, just don’t lie about them (of course I mean lying of any kind), it’ll come full round back at you. And I’m not trying to threaten people, I say it like it is! 😉

Is it not but annoying for people to wait on others even though the one who is waiting isn’t doing anything? I’m like that, but it’s even more so worse to do everything and anything for someone and not have anything give to you back. It’s a waste of energy and I’ll have none of that in my life. It’s best to separate yourself from the things that will ruin you. And that’s how I’m going to live, and I don’t care about how unemotional it sounds because I am too sensitive to really want to be put in that kind of situation anymore. It’s hard to be in a world where everyone plays victim, but I won’t too often! So forgive my ramblings.

Anyhow. I’ve been a bit lazy with writing, but attention has suddently shifted to a lot of drawing. It’s weird like that, but I hope I’ll always want to write and do art just the same as each other. And I suck at writing, but this is why I have Transcient Cafe.

I’ve done some of my hw for intro to anatomy. Here’s how they turned out:

Arm Study 4_2a_duong.jpg

The first one was all right, I had trouble with the arm so it’s pretty shitty, and I didn’t completely color the background because it was all ready over 30-40 minutes (the usual time frame to do these exercises) . I’m happy with the second head picture though, it turned out the way I wanted it too; but not completely, just mostly because I’m all ready good with faces and heads. These were done with charcoal on 18×24 vellum paper. It doesn’t matter what paper you use, they’re all the same except vellum is pretty think, and it’s also for ink and stuff. So keep in mind, it’s just a ploy most of the time to get people to buy “special” paper for specific needs, isn’t really true, you know. I toned the white paper with a sanguine crayon by scraping it with a knife and letting the dust fall, and taking a tissue (recommend to get chamois – finally something useful for it! j/k it’s good to spread charcoal, dry pastel, and crayons on your surface area)

And my hw picture: Skull Study

Turned out good, ne? This was graphite on 9×12 paper. No need for anything fancy, fixed it a little w/photoshop with the leveling, but that’s it.

Oh yes, and the reason I’m doing haikus is because I want to get into poetry more, and I absolutely suck at it. I figured if I took a hand in it, I’d understand more, and I think I do.

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Calming Day

“Relief”

Unsettling mind,

I cleanse with inner strength, courage,

and peace, be thankful.

I just had a pleasant talk with someone, and it took four days to spring up some courage for it. In the end, I have a greater understanding of these people whom I feel a separation from. I shouldn’t feel that way, if indeed they and I are the same. Which I do truly think, all people are the same mainly because we all walk the same path eventually, some slower than others. Today was suppose to be a spiritual day, and I guess it was. I’ve been neglecting to meditate daily, I guess school does this to you? Well, I’m going to try again, I do this a lot, on and off, but I believe in the essence of spirituality, so this is something I want to do for the rest of my life.

Anyway, I’ve been practicing with markers!

Castle in the NightDark Stare

I couldn’t completely scan my entire name on the first one because my scanner can’t scan everything even though the scanner bed fit the height quite well. I actually did these pretty fast, and I like them a lot, because I’m getting the hang of using my warm grey markers. As one can see, the first image is of my first thumbnail in the last entry. I didn’t expect to do them today, but I just felt like it. The second picture was not suppose to be final, I was just playing around, that’s why there’s some unwanted lines in it still. It’s not official, but I still like it!

I don’t really have much to say today. Another poem for another time.

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School and Japan Town

“Searching”

I search for the things I need

most, finding but naught in a

stormy uplifting.

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